Floetry From the Heart

  Silent Cries, Smiles Lie and Platitude  I am yearning and aching for solace in the one person that can give it to me  yet here i am, here alone, and caught in an unusual place of Pain and Love Smiles are my way to lie to world and let them see "I am too right with in"  but within the great deep I am dying without the very thing that could save me from me Cries scream echos of tortured and desperation to feel and feel the right way through Love not Loves ugly brother Pain, for Pain has ill will and plans of bad intent to destroy the essence that has kept and help me survive life's toils and tribulations A smile that lies, cries out and wells up inside the bottom of the great beneath  for she knows the end result is the end of her light, her love, the very life as shes known it Cries echo in empty halls, Smiles lie as their light beams on souls in front of them Smile hides the pain the rain washes with every storm, Cries lie silent in the deep inside of Spirit Front facad

      T heophilus is the name or honorary title of the person to whom  the Gospel of Luke and the Acts of the Apostles are addressed.     T heophilus , a lost man, to faith in Christ. ... He became intentional by presenting the claims of Christ to him in   written   form so that   Theophilus   could have a clear understanding of all he needed to know about HIM . T rue love is what I have for such a being surpassing the earthly kind, it goes through the ages and through the H eart of the universe all the way to the creators deep within, if such a place were to exist here  E pitomizing all realities in which we exist in a place no one can   penetrate  our existence  O bbligato to the peace creator always provides  you and you only have and kept P alms on lips and spirit ready to release the praises of HE we call Lord and give thanks 4 our union O bdurate sinner who is never moved by secular influence but influenced only by the spirit of Him & Us L over of my soul and HE who loves yo

  Thick Ma'dam She is Black Girl Magic rolled and molded out of the stars of the universe where moons have laid their gravity upon her celestial body  just to hold her feels like an out of body experience that you just want to cuddle with, get your warmth from, spend all day in the bed and make love to Brown skin girl with skin smooth like silk and shea butta, where feeling the of her experience is a high from heaven She is intelligent and humble, sweet and Strong owning all of who she is with her back arched and head held high and her crown on straight ma'dam is auspicious for she is a QUEEN!  The Thick Ma'dam loves from the deepest corners of her soul only to lift her KING up, out, over from under the pressures of life, so she can breath life to his spirit  and love into his heart for he knows that her kind of love is a special one... Her stomach is like a soft pillow of clouds to lay on and have the love rain of extacy fall upon From her thick thighs, lips and hips that

  Stepping outside of myself        Mastering pain, fear and living in Light,  Living in vain of what my potential is,  according to the Universe that continues to send me divine signs of promise Loving those around you don't always feel deserving of the same love serving those hurting, grieving, and broke, and feeling that pain amplified within The divine gives me hope as im given the vision  that my brokenness comes with purpose, a jaded shade of soft greens that can heal and can bring a Hope and Light to people I care for and love  sometimes stepping out of yourself will allow you to  witness what you truly are to become and have because you've gone without, but can you feel Blessed in that?  if so, what will you do with with your blessing? your bliss and at what cost the price I've paid has been high, and the enduring  of the phenomenon that builds strength and tenacity that builds                       moxi and fortitude in an age where i am spiritually  invincible  an

  the BLUE KING   As I dive, swimming into your great depth of Sol,  I see the dark settle only to feel it unsettled in your Spirit  Blue sky water, the feel of being inside your sea,  associating myself with your Open Spaces of pain only to see the Freedom you Yearn ,  and i know your Intuition tells you to leave this wretched place just Imagine if you did. Just image if you had the Safety  you need inside HER Sol  and Adoration , Expansiveness of something powerful  who has the room for you to share it all with?  And the win would be the I nspiration that came with HER Sensitive to your pain, who would protect you from the aftershocks of it,  then you'd be more Confident  enough to  Trust and be Loyal to HER magic that came with HER  Sincerity,   Wisdom , a Goddess like since of Strength and  Stability,   the  Faith of a Heaven like divinity and  spiritual Intelligence  see the Blue King comes from a past of pain, betrayal and mislead  love that only lied to him, battered h

  The color BLUE  sets the canvas reflecting the night sky  and I am just a mire silhouette watching  the painter's brushes set the tones of greens and golds,  but BLUE  takes center stage From the past to the present and lost and now found I take in the pain that that is not mine  but belongs to another, set in its RED  hues and merges with BLUE's and create the bruises they left on your scares  GOLD  of an untold story, but one buried deep in the ground of dejection Sounds of distressed breathing, and an aching body of invisibility I wish you can see me through spectacles  of Light & Vision for most, its to great of an asking Only for those the whose roots are strong and planted to be grounded in truth,   the Tree of Life sits , rooted, strong and unbreakable  peaceful as I sit peacefully in its shade awaiting the next stroke Such an undertaking can be tasking,  just waiting to see what might appear next  but with company, the waiting leaves me wading inside pools of sha

  Without the Melody... For two life times i've been unable to hear the melody of my heart  spiritually alone...abandoned... let alone see, touch or be engaged inside its symphony  and by divine chance it returned to me, welcoming and open to receive me   submerged it sweeps me, deeper with each listen which prompts an intense response each time... And It Terrifies Me... but I can't stop myself from listening, i want more...I ...need ...more Now in this age of chaos and turmoil  I can hear it much more louder, much clearer why is that you suppose?  Because a much more higher power ordains it so?  or because i refuse to take No as a resolve to stay safe inside  the walls of my heart and walls of my mind? A song I have so long to hear played, and  well i'm ready to receive the mystros composition waiting for his stave place so eloquently,  it places me horizontally viewing the stars and moon  I see in the eyes of the composer and l  wait   to watch his direction as he waves h

  Whatevership: Late Night Conversations Words just poured out of my heart, like pouring water into a vessel, into yours They flowed out of the places I kept sacred Away from those whose only intent was to take them And execute plans of their own demise, So my sacred place stayed impenetrable The Frequency of this energy we exchange is rare, See you didn’t know a sistah was so, sensual indeed U can’t even fathom the idea of a lamb turning into a Lioness in the height of the climax of the narrative we became one Here we are as day transitions to dusk, I belong to you... in a place that only belonged to us When you look at me you seek more of me, the depth of me But I proceed to go on about other things, those remineses' are far to fragile to hold The confabulation about past hurts, Future endeavors, and Loves lost You continue to articulate on your prime focus and future plans Yet, it’s funny how sometimes we try to control fate, But fate has a way of stepping in and controllin

  Chocolate Cake If Chocolate Cake is sinfully delicious, eat, I guess that makes me a sinner  So let me eat my cake and have it too.  Two pieces of this decadent bliss, with kisses dripping down the sides of my mouth,  When consumed, it consumes me to the very depths of my being Taking in everything that's bad for me, only to feel so good about indulging in it.  The only perk to being a sinner After eating it, it leaves me wanting for more as sin sometime does,  because when it's all said and done,  it's  the feeling it leaves you with that matters.    © 2020 N'game'

Un Requited L ove Feeling on top, top, top of the world! and your world is finally making sense and... Then that no nonsense response to I love you or let me show you, shows up in that moment of euphoria as non responsive notion of nothingness from the person who you love but doesn't seem to love you back on that level but loves you as Fam based spaced with terms like "girl i got love for you" "i got you fam" you know we are close, something loosely said after watching Netflix and chill night, like literally chill no kiss no cuddy but cuddling and even seemingly appearance of being smitten as eyes lock.... Only left to stand on the edge of feelings and emotions to be discarded in the moment where you stand on the edge of the cliff pondering about why? asking "Am I not good enough for love" feeling forsaken and broke to the core... Un Requited L ove is the worst kind of love to face and let go of ....                                     2020

   Numb To many times, and not once more will i be a slave to your false givings. To many times, wasted time has given illussions to a reality my mind has already set to menifest. To many times have i given myself freely and not to myself it always comes with a price.  You Love, are a posion that over came my senses and drained my dry of the strong blood the flowed through these vien so long ago, Just to leave me empty and penniless, weak and numb to point of a return that cost to much I am done with you and your broken promises, phishing, scam and sarcastics  You unreturned communications and affections Only to fall numb to what i used to know as Beautiful and lively. My light is dimming because you are no longer in the room to fuel my happiness and I find these days happiness to be inside of me, made I can't cry even to know someone is going to die, the empathy in me takes extra energy to bring to the surface, when its buried so deep somegthing thats a full time job t