Sanctuary of Trust

 







“Sanctuary of Trust”





I have wounds I never showed daylight,
Bruises beneath the skin that never bruised right.
Secrets folded in the corners of my soul

Origami pain
Shaped from silence,
Pressed by shame.

There are parts of me
Even the mirror has never met.
Whispers I hush with laughter,
Tears I rehearse when the world forgets.
But I…
I want to trust.

Not just the feel-good, peace-sign kind,
But the soul-baring, storm-sharing kind.
The kind that opens my rib cage like stained glass windows
So someone can pray inside.

I want to love without trembling at the hinge of vulnerability.
To say: “Here I am,”
unpolished
And not fear abandonment will echo back.

See, I have been
The safe for too many confessions,
The box that locked down brokenness
To protect everyone else from its mess.
But now I long
To unlock myself.

I long to believe
That someone can hold the parts I hide
And not shatter under the weight.
That divinity don’t flinch at my darkness,
That Spirit can dance in the very places
I swore it was unlovable.

I ache to trust
That my pain doesn’t make me less holy,
That my past doesn’t disqualify my hope.
That even cracked things carry light
Even scarred voices still sing the truth.

I want to trust like oceans do
No fear of drowning,
No fear of depth,
Just movement.
Just surrender.
Just breath and wave, breath and wave…

Because love
Real love
The sacred kind
Doesn’t ask for perfection,
Just permission.

Permission to see you.
To sit with your shaking.
To kiss the wound, not avoid it.
To whisper, “You are not too much.”
To hold you when your faith forgets its language.

So today, I lift my secrets like prayer beads.
I name them not to shame them,
But to set them free.
And I say to the universe, to God,

To myself:
I am ready.
Ready to be known.
Ready to be loved with my shadows intact.
Ready to trust—slowly, bravely,
Even if my voice shakes.
Because this time,
I won’t close the door before love can knock.

This time,
I will be the sanctuary
I was searching for.
And let someone worship with me

Right here,
Where the healing begins.

N'game' 🦋

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